Friends Flee But Christ Remains

Friends Flee But Christ Remains

        For various reasons many Christians lose friends whether they be secular friends or typical church-people friends. Because of sin in the world true brotherhood is very rarely played out. Deep in the soul of individuals we long for it but often times never get it. We are left alone. Friends don’t act like friends and don’t care about personal struggles and they really are not genuinely truthfully friends, but just tolerate you or are simply acquaintances. I was reading more of the book Strengthen My Spirit by Charles Spurgeon today, the sermon titled “Never Forsaken” speaks to me (p. 10).

“And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, LORD, hast not forsaken them that seek thee.”   Psalm 9:10 (KJV)

A lot of times it is so hard to put my faith and trust in God because I am a weak sinner and I give into depression and evil thoughts. So much pain and anguish from the past comes back and there is no one to help. I often feel like I want to cease to exist, life is hard, I would rather die and go to heaven. Bad thoughts creep in and doubting because of Satan’s worldly lies. But Spurgeon exclaims,

How sweet it is to learn the Savior’s love when nobody else loves us! When friends flee, what a blessed thing it is to see that the Savior does not forsake us but still keeps us and holds us fast and clings to us and will not let us go! Oh, beloved brother and sister, believe that your remaining here on earth is for your eternal benefit.”  (p. 10)

It is very tough sometimes to let go of the feelings and fully trust and put faith in God during certain times. But the dark times usually pass and then I am back on track. I am always a continual work in progress. Friends in this world whether they be Christians or not are not the point of life. Though Christian friends who are helpful and love you are beneficial and used by God for your spiritual health. But the dark times in the world make genuine Christian friends more scarce and even the Christian ones fail miserably. Everyone fails including me. A person needs to hold on and live life through the pain and endure until God’s timing to call you home. Suicide or hoping to die will not benefit Christ as much as suffering and embracing it.

No Human Can Fully Know You Inside

No Human Can Fully Know You Inside

        As a teenager suffering from depression or loneliness back in the day I used to contemplate how no one knows me and how it is actually impossible for anyone to know me. I also knew it was impossible for me to truly know someone else or other people to know each other. That is to say “everything inside of them and who they are, their entire inner-being.” Of course we can believe what people are by how they talk to us and by their outward actions, and we can assume their outward behavior is a result of what is inside of them; and hopefully that is true; yet we take such knowledge by faith. We base this faith in what people are by the evidence we see about that person and what they portray to us.

        A person can come off as good to us and a friend but still they could be lying and pretending, and something absolutely different is inside of them. Some of these types of ideas are why I personally believe many psychological disorders in people exist. Some of these disorders become outward actions of bizarre murder and even mass murders. Shooters, serial killers, spree killers and many other things. This is why many criminals exist.

        But to live life paranoid about people is ridiculous in my opinion and lowers your quality of life. We should be on guard of course and use common sense, which is basing our faith in what someone is on how they behave outwardly. We can catch people in various ways. Normal people with nothing to hide, who are honest, will behave the same way regardless of who is watching or who is around them. Other people will change how they act depending on who is around them, or if no one is around them, and if you stumble upon them alone or saw evidence of them being somewhere doing something else which makes no sense to how they were acting to you first then you know they are not who they say they are. This is how we catch liars and dishonest people and back stabbers. Sometimes people do one thing one way and openly change another way, and do not even care if you see them or not. This happens with open betrayal etc. With all of this it seems impossible to know someone if they are constantly contradicting their previous behavior.

        All people regardless of religion or no religion put their faith and trust in human beings all the time every day. From personal friends to the clerk at the grocery store. You believe they are going to act one way and do certain behaviors you expect before they even happen. A friend will be true to you, and a clerk will take money, count correct change and put your groceries in a bag. Now if you walked up to a grocery clerk and instead they ignored you or spit on you, then you would not expect that. But no one lives their lives paranoid that a grocery clerk is going to spit on them and think they better be on guard. That is absurd. Likewise, we can trust in our friends to be true and they can trust us. We can also know that God is who He says He is and what the Bible teaches, and when we die we will see God exactly as the Bible portrays Him and He will not be different. We can trust this because so much evidence supports this in what the Bible says. We base our beliefs on who God is from the Bible. But could this all be a lie? What evidence suggests God is lying in the Bible to you? This is called having faith. Faith is not blind as the atheists claim, faith is trusting what we do not see yet but it is not without a reason or evidence. Could a human being be lying to you every day and live an entire live pretending he is your friend and then in reality he was faking it? If that is possible you will never know. They will die with that secret. This is very unlikely and according to how people act, including yourself you know that would make no sense. What benefit did they have to be your fake friend and never openly admit they hated you? I am sure someone could try to rationalize a reason but more often than not (by an extreme amount!!) this is not going to be true. It is also why it is safe to put your faith in God and what His Word says.

        The only One who knows us fully inside and out is God because He is omniscient. He knows all things because He created all things. He has full and complete knowledge of the universe including the inside of every person in existence who ever existed in history and who ever will exist. So God knows inside of you. A human can only know your external behavior and trust what you say, but God truly knows you inside and understands your personal experience exactly how you live it and how you think. This is intimacy that no human being, not even a spouse, can have with you. The evidence from the Bible supports that God loves you, knows you inside perfectly and will give judgment accordingly to people. He knows your struggles and sins as well as the worthy things you do for His glory. He has forgiven you and paid the price to have you by dying on the cross. For the godless He knows their evil and will punish them. So either way we can rest assured God is the only perfect love and friend for you, and also the perfect judge to give retribution to those who have done evil, not only against you but the entire world. Vengeance is God’s because He has perfect knowledge for how and why and the intent of someone’s sin. You do not.

        For the godless they have nothing helping them. No possible way out of sin and depravity and are left only with their thoughts. They are alone in their minds, inside flesh which breeds self centerdness. All they experience is from within their own minds going outward and do not have the Holy Spirit’s power inside them to stop them, or change them, or give them light in their dark minds. This is absolutely horrible as anyone struggling with self destructive lifestyles such as drugs or sex addiction or anything else cannot change at all on their own, at least completely. This is why so many die as a result of their own hand (whether suicide or a result of their lifestyle). An outward force has to prevent their depravity. Sometimes a friend helps or the law comes in and puts people in jail away from their drugs etc. But ultimately a true heart change can only come from God. People left in their own minds with a self centered worldview, if they are left long enough only behave logically to their world view. If there is no God there is no law, and nothing matters since there is no evil or good. All they feel is hate and pain so lashing out to satisfy their rage makes sense. Seeking pleasure is all that would matter. No pleasure then no life. Rampage killers and spree killers are only behaving logically to their world view, and no one knows them inside. If they left writings behind explaining their actions it still cannot make total sense to others. All people are different and have different ideas of life. Some hate it and some are too busy loving it to notice God. Some people’s behavior is expected and others are unexpected. A person could be boiling over and people are not at all surprised he killed a lot of people, and others are left totally confused as to why such a polite and nice man killed so many people. There is no human cure for mental illness, in fact most mental illness that the media proclaims is actually simply a sinful life. The only cure is God. Much mental illness is actually demonic which feeds more lies into a sin tortured soul.

        The fact is no one can know you but God. God knows everyone including evil people, their insides and out. God acts on His children giving them love, peace, forgiveness, correction, and truth to fill a person with confidence and trust in God. To be changed and feel love and understand love to give love out to other people. The ones who are not God’s children are left in spiritual darkness which always breeds self destruction and pain to others. This is something to contemplate. If you are a Christian rest assured God knows you and knows your pain. You will be comforted and God will take vengeance in the last days for all evil. If you hate God and do not believe you are left alone, only to think in your own mind in total confusion to what existence is and why you exist, or if your reality is real or not, and you will be in frustration. You will hate, feel depressed and have no meaning or purpose. Pleasure does not last so you seek more pleasure until nothing pleases you. You will then see no reason to live and in many cases no reason for anyone else to exist. You will either take this worldview, of no god, to its logical conclusion or lie to yourself and pretend your life matters, and that somehow you are important and good. Both ways are self centered dungeons of thought. Only the Christian has the free mind that functions from an outside force that totally knows them, works in them, and is within them. God is that force.

Typical Christian Such As I

Typical Christian Such As I

I got lazy and I forgot to put my Spiritual Armour on for the past few weeks. I thought oh big deal I am tired and it is hot to wear and feels uncomfortable…I went about my days without defense. I was attacked several times and still did not think to put on my armour the next day. How could I have been so stupid when I know the truth? The attacks wounded me temporarily but not mortally, even though the after affects make me wish I was dead. I want to die and be taken away…

Idleness brings sinfulness. There is nothing to do and I am so bored. Why don’t I have enough work? This economy brings nothing for me and my life seems wasted. What did I do it all for just to be here in this stagnant position? Trying to focus, there were a few days I put my armour back on and felt wonderful and protected. It was actually comfortable. Then I took it off to have a rest and was attacked again and I willingly followed into a trap like a willfully blind person who puts their hands over their eyes instead of using glasses. My sin profanes the name of Christ, my sin creates mockery to God’s holy name.

I have failed my Master again. He is training me and putting me in heavily loaded situations that bring so much stress and pain. Stress builds character? What is He training me like this for? My life feels like a waste and useless. Why am I not able to do what the other fortunate Christians get to do? Their big ministries, their evangelism, their great works of righteousness, their friends and holy actions, their wonderful wives, their jobs…why am I left here alone? Why is it when I want to behave I cannot and no one cares? I hate my idleness, when I work I feel wonderful and strong. Accomplished. Then the days come with nothing to do and sin festers inside and wants to take action. But I hate it, but if I hate it why do I crave it? I CRAVE IT! I AM ADDICTED! I have vile passions…Can someone rescue me, a friend, or a wife or someone to help me in this world? No one…I hate what I do but I really love it secretly, but no I actually hate it, yet love it, but I really do hate it, GOD I HATE IT! Romans 7. I have no one to talk to about it as I am shamed! I am desperate…

I am afraid of God, yet He says he loves me and forgives me. Sin is a very temporary and instantaneous pleasure that is nothing more than, well, and instant…right after you finish you’re full of pain, remorse, guilt, and self-hate. You cannot sleep, you cannot have a rested mind. That is the punishment to the Christian. God forgive me, I am like Isaiah in my mind thinking about how unclean my lips are in your presence. How can I come to you and pray so soon after such failure?

I am to be satisfied in God alone, my true portion as the Psalmist says. But why do I desire someone? Why do I desire companions? Why do I desire anything but you? God please bless me with friends and a godly lover to tend my wounds, to bless me and guide me into your truth and encourage me to deny sin and live in her comfort which would be nothing more than a earthly demonstration of your love for me. I should be satisfied in your love alone and hope in your Word. But I want someone as Adam had a helper. I am sorry for this.

Lord forgive me and heal me from my failure. I WILL ALWAYS SIN AGAINST YOU! I WILL ALWAYS RUN AWAY! NO MATTER HOW MUCH I PRAY I WILL OFFEND YOU MY GOD! UNTIL THE DAY OF MY DEATH AND TRANSFORMATION INTO PERFECTION IN THE NEXT HEAVENLY REALM! It is my sinful nature. I hate it. Why do You come back to me? Why do You call me back? I confidently say today I will be holy and follow God yet my sin comes back. You still call me back to You. You still love me, You still forgive me, You still heal me, You clean me up. I cannot BOAST IN MYSELF! I BOAST IN YOU GOD! I need your Holy Spirit’s sanctification, illumination, and power. I need the loving hand of a Shepherd and Master to guide me and give me work. I need a Father to love me and call me to His grace. I did not chose this desperate struggle, it chose me. It is a worthy struggle and a calling to live a life that is painful yet full of God’s comfort and satisfaction and loving grace.

This is the life of a typical Christian such as I. A nobody in this world, a nobody in popular church, but for some reason-mysterious important to the God of the universe Who is patient to anger and full of mercy, grace, and deep love for my soul. He will punish the attacker’s, He will round them up and destroy them. My vengeance in is God, and my own willful stupidity will be healed and cured simply by His Word. Lord forgive me, take me back. Love me, heal me. Give me the strength to keep hating my flesh and loving you, and give me the power to avoid offending you and breaking your Holy Law. Thank you Jesus Christ, I love you.

The Natural Man Disappears In A Spark

The Natural Man Disappears In A Spark

        A lot of people in the world, most of us, at least at some time before conversion to Christ, at one time, or if not, then someone who currently has not entered into reconciliation with God; people in general do not have what they need and they do not even know what they need. This truth is the reason why so many people live worthless lives, or non-fulfilling lives; constantly trying to find meaning, worth, and satisfaction and never getting any. This is the reason many enter into anger, hate, depression, lust, and a mad mental state of confusion.

So many people do not ever talk about spiritual things, and worse off, the ones who completely reject spiritual things and are taught that such a concept of spirituality is ludicrous and embarrassing to even openly consider have no hope of ever receiving these needs, wants, desires, and such understanding, peace, calmness, hope, purpose, reason, and love given to them. There is no purpose, there is no meaning, there is no point. If this world was the extent of existence then what a sad and hopeless life. Do what you want, do it now, do not care and disappear in a spark of naught.

This is the extent of a life well lived to the natural man. Live in ignorance and despair and exist as a quick fire fueled by filth.

1 Corinthians 2:14 “But a natural man does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually appraised.”