You Left Me Alone When I Needed You

You Left Me Alone When I Needed You

        Constantly, I put trust in people only to be let down. I try again and have hope the next will be right. It never works out. I am always left completely alone and isolated. I put my trust in people and trying to make friends or have a girlfriend one day. I beg God for help but He says “remain alone.” You left me alone when I needed you most old friend, so long, as you go your way and I go mine I see the reality in what you really are about.

I am thankful I bought “Strengthen My Spirit” which is a small book of edited sermons by Charles Spurgeon. Page 8 has a small section called “The Redemption of God” where he states:

“Vain are all our lookings around to companions and relatives; they are broken reeds if we lean upon them— often unwilling when able and unable when they are willing.”

This is a fact. I cannot rely on human companionship for the redemption and sanctification and true comfort that Christ Jesus will give me.  I will always be abandoned by them because many people are fickle and superficial and fake. This past year and this current month have been a test and also a reminder that such people are going to fail me and don’t really care about my struggles, and they will leave me empty and alone just as I was before I met them. Even worse off than I was before I met them. Life is funny that way but it is a test of God to give me endurance in my faith. I need to actively seek God and be his true faithful servant and allow Him to be my companion and lover of my soul as I will not have satisfaction in anyone else. I am alone with God and He wants it this way and I have to embrace it even though I do not know how long I will be in my situation. And I have to learn to forgive the ones who leave me alone and cause pain and abandon me along this life.

1 Peter 1:6-7

All I Do Is Sin

All I Do Is Sin

Addictive sin, habitual sin, and sin you struggle with. Is there a difference between the 3 or are they simply just a triune wretchedness? Are they 1 in the same yet distinct? 1 John 3 is terrifying. How often can you come and go to God? So the Father’s hand holds me, He chose me and told His Son to die for me. Then His Son’s shepherding hands hold me as well. What keeps me sealed with the Holy Spirit? Christ alone. How do I know He holds me? Is it my deeper desire for purity and holiness to follow God and desire to please Him, which is buried deeply by flesh that craves wicked desires…? Because what is on top is more noticeable than an inner desire.

Native Cultures Of The Pacific Islands Book Review

Native Cultures Of The Pacific Islands Book Review

        Here is a video of a book review of the book Native Cultures of the Pacific Islands by Douglas L. Oliver. This is a very interesting book that focuses on Polynesia, Micronesia, and Melanesia together as a whole. As Christians knowing about other cultures and history is a good way to connect to another culture. We can also figure out for ourselves, using the Bible, what aspects of a culture is sinful and what is not sinful and apply that to the way we witness Christ to the world. Show learn something about Pacific Islanders and enjoy!

Typical Christian Such As I

Typical Christian Such As I

I got lazy and I forgot to put my Spiritual Armour on for the past few weeks. I thought oh big deal I am tired and it is hot to wear and feels uncomfortable…I went about my days without defense. I was attacked several times and still did not think to put on my armour the next day. How could I have been so stupid when I know the truth? The attacks wounded me temporarily but not mortally, even though the after affects make me wish I was dead. I want to die and be taken away…

Idleness brings sinfulness. There is nothing to do and I am so bored. Why don’t I have enough work? This economy brings nothing for me and my life seems wasted. What did I do it all for just to be here in this stagnant position? Trying to focus, there were a few days I put my armour back on and felt wonderful and protected. It was actually comfortable. Then I took it off to have a rest and was attacked again and I willingly followed into a trap like a willfully blind person who puts their hands over their eyes instead of using glasses. My sin profanes the name of Christ, my sin creates mockery to God’s holy name.

I have failed my Master again. He is training me and putting me in heavily loaded situations that bring so much stress and pain. Stress builds character? What is He training me like this for? My life feels like a waste and useless. Why am I not able to do what the other fortunate Christians get to do? Their big ministries, their evangelism, their great works of righteousness, their friends and holy actions, their wonderful wives, their jobs…why am I left here alone? Why is it when I want to behave I cannot and no one cares? I hate my idleness, when I work I feel wonderful and strong. Accomplished. Then the days come with nothing to do and sin festers inside and wants to take action. But I hate it, but if I hate it why do I crave it? I CRAVE IT! I AM ADDICTED! I have vile passions…Can someone rescue me, a friend, or a wife or someone to help me in this world? No one…I hate what I do but I really love it secretly, but no I actually hate it, yet love it, but I really do hate it, GOD I HATE IT! Romans 7. I have no one to talk to about it as I am shamed! I am desperate…

I am afraid of God, yet He says he loves me and forgives me. Sin is a very temporary and instantaneous pleasure that is nothing more than, well, and instant…right after you finish you’re full of pain, remorse, guilt, and self-hate. You cannot sleep, you cannot have a rested mind. That is the punishment to the Christian. God forgive me, I am like Isaiah in my mind thinking about how unclean my lips are in your presence. How can I come to you and pray so soon after such failure?

I am to be satisfied in God alone, my true portion as the Psalmist says. But why do I desire someone? Why do I desire companions? Why do I desire anything but you? God please bless me with friends and a godly lover to tend my wounds, to bless me and guide me into your truth and encourage me to deny sin and live in her comfort which would be nothing more than a earthly demonstration of your love for me. I should be satisfied in your love alone and hope in your Word. But I want someone as Adam had a helper. I am sorry for this.

Lord forgive me and heal me from my failure. I WILL ALWAYS SIN AGAINST YOU! I WILL ALWAYS RUN AWAY! NO MATTER HOW MUCH I PRAY I WILL OFFEND YOU MY GOD! UNTIL THE DAY OF MY DEATH AND TRANSFORMATION INTO PERFECTION IN THE NEXT HEAVENLY REALM! It is my sinful nature. I hate it. Why do You come back to me? Why do You call me back? I confidently say today I will be holy and follow God yet my sin comes back. You still call me back to You. You still love me, You still forgive me, You still heal me, You clean me up. I cannot BOAST IN MYSELF! I BOAST IN YOU GOD! I need your Holy Spirit’s sanctification, illumination, and power. I need the loving hand of a Shepherd and Master to guide me and give me work. I need a Father to love me and call me to His grace. I did not chose this desperate struggle, it chose me. It is a worthy struggle and a calling to live a life that is painful yet full of God’s comfort and satisfaction and loving grace.

This is the life of a typical Christian such as I. A nobody in this world, a nobody in popular church, but for some reason-mysterious important to the God of the universe Who is patient to anger and full of mercy, grace, and deep love for my soul. He will punish the attacker’s, He will round them up and destroy them. My vengeance in is God, and my own willful stupidity will be healed and cured simply by His Word. Lord forgive me, take me back. Love me, heal me. Give me the strength to keep hating my flesh and loving you, and give me the power to avoid offending you and breaking your Holy Law. Thank you Jesus Christ, I love you.

Charismatics Misuse 1 Corinthians 2:4-5 All the Time

Charismatics Misuse 1 Corinthians 2:4-5 All the Time

        If you are ever around many typical evangelicals or you go to a Christian college or hang around a large church, or have just been around the block in Christian culture you will hear Charismatics using 1 Corinthians 2:4-5 out of context. They use it to support their belief in supernatural experiences and miracles; especially divine healings or speaking in tongues or receiving prophecy (including words of knowledge, words of wisdom etc.).

        When I went to Biola University much of the Asians on campus were literally obsessed with supernatural experiences and mysticism. Almost all the Asians on campus (mainly Koreans but other Asian ethnicities as well) who were in the Asian Student Association were into this stuff. They often had “worship” and “prayer” meetings led by a Filipino American heretic who was graduating from Talbot Seminary at the time. They would constantly promote the idea of healing miracles, prophecies, words from God, seeing God in visions and dreams, fighting demons and all kinds of crazy stuff. This was around 2008 or 2009. The reason I call the leader a heretic was because he was, not that simply being Charismatic made him a heretic, but that he was actually promoting heresy and is basically a cult leader for mystical experiences right now doing his own ministry.

        One time I was at one of their Asian Student Association “miracle crusades” for Biola students just because I wanted to hang out with Asians for fun and hopefully get to meet some cute Asian girls (didn’t work though because I was not spiritual enough for them, which basically means I was not into supernatural stuff).  What I saw was the typical “prayer orgy” which is a nickname I made up for people laying all over the ground near and on each other crying, babbling in tongues, and praying loud and yelling. During this, one Filipino kid ran up the aisle and ran into the wall babbling in tongues pretending he was possessed by the Holy Spirit. Yet no one noticed and when he realized no one was watching he immediately stopped the craziness and calmly walked back to where all the action was.  He did not see me watching and I thought it was quite amusing which proved to me he was full of it.

        There were at least 2 white guys there that afternoon who were Vineyard Church types that knew the Filipino American leader. They both tried to give me words of knowledge and were completely inaccurate and wrong. They said, “Man can I just pray for you? God is leading me to pray over you.” I said they could because I wanted to know if this stuff was real or not. They tried to tell me typical stuff about myself anyone could have made up, and that God gave them a word, and the word was “kayak.” I have never been in a kayak or been around anyone river rafting in a kayak nor anything like it my entire life so they were wrong. They also tried to heal me before because I had recently had knee surgery. No I did not get healed and it was annoying.

        Before this event, in other occurrences often times charismatics walked around campus and tried to “prayer rape” you. That is another nickname I made up for when Pentecostals or Charismatics randomly walk up to you babbling in tongues and try to pray over you by laying their hands on you and getting close. It is usually a “gang rape” as well with multiple people doing this at the same time who mob you with their dirty hands all over you from every angle. You might wonder why I seem to be using sexually vulgar nick names for these behaviors, but I think they are a very good analogy and are sensually aggressive metaphors. The Charismatic belief system is a sensual religion not based on Scriptural truth which brings me to my point of the misuse of 1 Corinthians 2:4-5. The passage states:

“And my speech and my preaching were not with persuasive words of human wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, that your faith should not be in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.” 

Paul stated this to make a point about the power of God and knowledge from the Holy Spirit to make known what is true, and not human foolishness which is what men today call wisdom.

        Before I explain this we must go back to the Biola Asians. During the supernatural meeting which included at least 50 people who were 95% Asian at Biola University in Bardwell Hall which is right next to the Cook School of Intercultural Studies (where I attended a lot of my classes) the leader of this group (whom I consider a cult leader bred at Talbot) claimed a lot of nonsense with a prophecy that his hand would get healed. Some girl he met told him she had a dream where God told her that his deformed hand would be healed. He was born with a crab-like hand. Well it never got healed any time when I was attending Biola. Apparently, even today it is still not healed, but when she said it he was affirming that GOD WILL heal it and it is a prophecy we should listen to. The girl who told him this was, according to him, a very very very new Christian who had just converted. After a lot of nonsense claims he quoted 1 Corinthians 2:4-5 and explained that people are too into doctrines and theology. He claimed we should let go of this human wisdom and stop trying to be rational and stop worshiping the Bible which he said was Bibliolatry. This is because he was a protege of JP Mooreland, a Talbot professor who wrote a paper where he said that most Christians are over committed to the Bible and are committing the sin of bibliolatry: holding the Bible above God. This is impossible since Jesus is the Word, and the Holy Spirit inspired the Word of Truth and illuminates the truth through Scripture for us. You cannot have God without the Bible or the Bible without God.

        Christians do not worship a physical book or text, but we give honor and respect and trust in God’s Word which is the Bible. To say that if we study the Bible, and believe in Bible doctrines as spiritual truth, and that is all we look to from God to know spiritual things then we are committing a sin and not worshiping God is absurd. What people like Mooreland promote is that there is new revelation in mysticism and supernatural occurrences and if we only care about the Bible then we are not listening to what God is doing today and we are ignoring God. The problem with this is that there is no basis for objective proof something is from God if you rely on supernatural occurrences and mystical experiences. Such things are purely subjective. What the Charismatics do is downplay the importance of the Bible and many times completely ignore it unless they are Scripture twisting to fit their personal experiences.

        Now during this Asian Charismatic fiasco the Filipino American cult leader guy used 1 Corinthians 2:4-5 to say that so many people are divisive and grieve the Holy Spirit because we are stuck on doctrines which he was implying was the human wisdom Paul was talking about. He was saying that is persuasive words and simply just talk. He said the kingdom of God is not a manner of talk, but of power (1 Thessalonians 1:5 out of context). He was saying the demonstration of the spirit and power is the supernatural miracles and mystical experiences. We should expect them and we should be able to hear God talk to us and everything else Charismatics promote. He was saying we should expect prophetic words and healings and speaking in tongues.  He totally misused the verse to fit his personal agenda and did not explain the true interpretation of the verse because he is a false teacher.

        The true interpretation is obvious in the correct context. Paul was stating that the Holy Spirit empowers the Word of God to illuminate truth to Christians and sanctify them through the Word. That Paul and the apostles revelation was God’s truth and divinely inspired. The Apostles and only the Apostles were the ones doing healings and demonstrations of supernatural miracles so signify that their message was God’s own. Nowhere does this massage claim or teach that Christians today should be demonstrating miracles and power and talking to God audibly and seeing visions of prophesy to tell the Church. This is how Charismatics twist Scripture and promote false teaching. This Filipino American leader who graduated from Talbot now teaches false spirituality which is nothing more than New Age mysticism sprinkled in Christian language. He even goes so far as to say that we can learn a lot from New Age and also visualization techniques. This is what happens when you do not base your understanding of God on the objective truth of Scripture and begin seeking experiences, that often times demons inspire.

        There is power in God’s Word to convict us of sin, set us straight, tell us about the times to come, and how to live for God properly and how we can be saved from our sins and be with God in heaven. The Word itself is enough and is all Christians should care about.

False Teachers Are Like A Hawk Hiding In A Tree Among Loud Birds

False Teachers Are Like A Hawk Hiding In A Tree Among Loud Birds

        The other day I was walking through the woods on a path and noticed a lot of loud birds. It is winter right now and there are hardly any leaves on the trees here in Alabama, and most of the time you do not see many birds in groups or doing much as when the trees are green. But this day I heard a small gathering of birds chirping like crazy and it reminded me of the zoo when you walk through the aviary and see all of the exotic birds that fly close to you and stand on branches near you. Many of them chirp and make all kinds of noise.

So, as I watched the birds it was nice to see them and I wondered why they were being so loud and all so close in one area together. It was more than one type of bird as well mixed together. I walked a little further along the path and was looking up at the trees. Then suddenly my eyes met a large and very dark figure sitting still on a tree branch waiting. It was a hawk who’s color matched the color of the tree it was sitting on and it sat still in the shadowy section of the woods looking fierce and ready to kill. As it saw me it waited a moment and then took off and flew away to another area far away as it feared me. The smaller birds who were loudly chirping calmed down.

Like the hawk, false teachers and false prophets are similar. Hawks are birds just as false teachers are church members. Yet hawks are not the same as the other birds since they are predatory and eat other birds as well as squirrels and mice, and even small cats around here. Similarly, false teachers are not the same as other church members who truly love God because they hunt for weak people in the church to lie to and ensnare.

For hawk’s the most alarming thing to the other birds is that they eat the non-predatory birds if they can catch them. The hawk waits in the forest much like false teachers wait in church classrooms or in the pews to spread their poison and trap people to kill with evil doctrines and ideas contrary to God’s Word. The hawk likewise waits to trap a bird a lone in the woods making the bird think it is safe by hiding in the shadows masked by its camouflage and suddenly it swoops down with its claws and carries the bird away to devour. False teachers and false prophets are looking for Christians to trap, or people weak in their faith to be enslaved to sins and false teaching that leads to hell. They are controlled by Satan’s army and just as the Devil prowls around like a roaring lion waiting to devour victims the false teachers and prophets imitate his example.

Similarly, like how the birds all gathered and chirped loud (which was a serious and very alarmed warning sounding through the trees to all animals present or near by) to make known the predator, Christians should behave the same way. If we see a false prophet or teacher near we need to alarm everyone and make it loud and known that they are evil and should be shunned and forced out to fly away far from the real Christian church members. If we do not alert the flock of their doctrinal poison then they will stick around to swoop down on people and carry them away in their claws of false teaching and carry them away from the flock. It is the Christian’s duty to call out and expose, name names, and pay attention to suspicious behavior and teachings in order to keep people safe from evil teachers and false prophets that hide in the forest to kill all it sees as easy pray. Likewise, we should teach other Christians to be safe as well as wise and confident in the true Gospel and true doctrines of Scripture so they can also warn others.

Many of the churches today do not care or are unconcerned with exposing heresy and evil people within church. This is why American Christianity is in such a bad state and why many false missionaries have spread doctrinal poison around the globe such as the prosperity gospel and false healers who just want money; as well as immoral scandalous “preachers” who manipulate and control.

I suggest that anyone who has read this blog post to go read 2 Peter 2. Chirp loudly and warn the rest of the Christians in the forest of God’s Church.